I was thinking about where my story is going this morning as I wrote the 43rd page of my story. I didn't know how or why, but whenever my fingers had an accord of their own and the words just flowed, the direction of the story went into darkness more and more. I don't know why that's happening or whether there should be a why. Surely, as all writers do, my story reflects my own story and my own life. Of course, there are no "Mandalas" in this world that we're living in and the details to the last core is not what I have experienced in my life or would even want to experience. Yet, when I go into the deep emotional parts of the story, I do use my own experiences, just as actors and actresses do when performing emotional dramatical monologues!
In any case, the darkness, at times, scare me. But I'm going to own it and continue to see where the story takes me. I feel like everyday that I sit down to write, I have some thoughts about how the story goes (though sometimes I have no thoughts), but then the ideas just drip down inside and move through my veins down to my fingers and I just read along as my fingers type the words. As I've mentioned in my last post, I will reclaim this blog and continue my original way of "blogging" while I continue that story on my own, but I will share my experiences of writing it. It is my very first work. I have written other short stories or even beginnings to novels, but this is my very first work that I'm investing all my time and energy into in order to have a complete project, because that is the most important thing for me right now.
I am enjoying the writing process, the creating process a whole lot and in this new Master Mind group that I have created, I'm constantly pushed and motivated to continue my writing and share it with a small audience, which is definitely an incentive for me and motivation to continue writing and taking it somewhere, whether I do decided to take the steps towards publishing it or not.
I foresee myself writing until the end of time...my time.
In any case, the darkness, at times, scare me. But I'm going to own it and continue to see where the story takes me. I feel like everyday that I sit down to write, I have some thoughts about how the story goes (though sometimes I have no thoughts), but then the ideas just drip down inside and move through my veins down to my fingers and I just read along as my fingers type the words. As I've mentioned in my last post, I will reclaim this blog and continue my original way of "blogging" while I continue that story on my own, but I will share my experiences of writing it. It is my very first work. I have written other short stories or even beginnings to novels, but this is my very first work that I'm investing all my time and energy into in order to have a complete project, because that is the most important thing for me right now.
I am enjoying the writing process, the creating process a whole lot and in this new Master Mind group that I have created, I'm constantly pushed and motivated to continue my writing and share it with a small audience, which is definitely an incentive for me and motivation to continue writing and taking it somewhere, whether I do decided to take the steps towards publishing it or not.
I foresee myself writing until the end of time...my time.
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