Writing Dilemmas

My writing schedule is a bit messed up. Three weeks ago, I went back to my fiction writing and have been very good at writing consistently everyday. Everyday, I work on my story for an hour to an hour and a half. I want to eventually increase that number to two to three hours. However, after discontinuing to post those fiction writings here, I haven’t exactly been an active blogger. And I miss that. I miss having this space to just write.
In fact, I have started reading a series of books about “writing” and I could really use my blog to write my understanding of it and the key points, etc. More importantly, my blog is a platform for me to chronicle my journey as a writer, a businesswoman, and an Iranian-American who’s husband just recently came to the US after 4+ years of waiting (for his visa) and has just moved to LA and is going through life figuring out her way as a wife and a citizen in this society. I state this because I want to highlight how absolutely not boring my life is.

For most of my childhood when I first moved to the states at the age of 10, I wished really badly that my life was boring but it really wasn’t and after years of this “push and pull” struggle, I have finally accepted it and have embraced the strangeness of my life and have realized its preciousness. I am grateful for everything I have in my life and everything that I am in my life. I know I don’t have a long time—life is short you know? So, instead of taking it so seriously, I am living my life to the extreme, feeling each day arise as I wake up way before sunrise and attend to my writing, my one true passion, writing, and I plan and do as best as I can, not always successfully but I try my best anyway, and I night the day and breathe each breath with certainty that this is it…this is the life…the only…living side by side with the love of my life doing what I love most…writing and sure the pay is not that much and there’s still a lot of uncertainty about where I’m going with it and doubts constantly arise when it comes to my business ventures but…that’s all I have and I’m truly grateful. I am blessed.

So last night, before going to sleep, I finally reached a conclusion about how to handle my situation. I am going to set up a “schedule” for my writing. Because I want to make sure I write everyday consistently for at least 1-1.5 hours, I am going to write on my blog a total of 3 days per week and work on my story other days of the week…4 to be exact. In this way, come Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday, I will post on my blog and Saturdays, Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I will focus on my story. In this way, I will be able to have best of both worlds and practice my writing in different ways. In addition, I am currently working on a paper about the concept of “healing” through “writing” and I would definitely use some of my blog days to zone in on it and share my findings here. Thus, I would not be writing here whenever I can borrow 15-20 minutes here and there. Rather, I will give it a full hour to ninety minutes to make sure I can write something concrete for submission. This neat project of my mine will begin next week though as this is a pretty hectic week for me. In fact, even next week may not be so consistent as it’s thanksgiving and I will have my whole family over at my place and will be busy, but surely I will be able to borrow a bit time for myself to write. As for this week, I am preparing, preparing, preparing. In addition, I am going to SF to my sister’s this Thursday, and coming back with her on Monday so I need to have everything ready by Thursday basically. And I just found out I have a test on Thursday…boy this week is really something! Regardless, I’m excited about this week and the week ahead as Thanksgiving is one of my most favorite holidays of all time!

I have to run now—I have a Toastmaster’s meeting in 30 minutes and I’m the grammarian/lexicologist! Perhaps I will explain on my next post…