I'm so excited for this year's Christmas and it's not just because I'm finally spending this Christmas with the love of my life in my own home--well, that has a lot to do with it but it's not the only reason. I think another reason is just because I'm so happy about this past year. I feel that I've had such an amazing year and I feel so thankful. I feel that I haven grown a lot and I've made some substantial changes in my life that I'm very proud of. Most importantly, this Christmas 2016, I can finally declare myself as a writer! I know I haven't been writing everyday for the past two or three weeks due to my crazy schedule and having guests over, but I have proof of my work--this blog, my story...
In fact, I'm once again very motivated to go back to my story and complete it. I did lose a little bit motivation and start a new project (which I would like to also do after I complete the story). I shared the story with my MasterMind group and I've gotten so much compliment from them that I'm all juiced up and ready to get back to writing! I know thanksgiving is already done, but, I never gave a chance to myself in this platform, to give my thanks. So here it is...
I'm so thankful for all that I have and all that I do not have. I'm thankful for all that I am and all that I am not. I got to experience first-hand what it means to have an awful mother-in-law this past week and not even because of my own mother-in-law. The truth is, I have an amazing mother-in-law who I love and miss and can't wait to bring into my life here in LA. She's like my godmother. She is so beautiful and kind and every day I wish I can be more like her. It's no wonder my husband has so much respect for her...she's just an amazing woman and mother and of course, mother-in-law. However, in a very weird turn of events, I experienced having an awful mother-in-law by someone who is a distant relative. Out of my parents' respect, I didn't bitch at her like I wished I could but man..she really showed me what it means to have a spiteful mother-in-law in her mother-in-law ways, I mean, the get in my face about my life traditional sense of mother-in-laws. Ok, this was supposed to be a positive message about why I'm thankful. Right. I'm thankful for not having a mother-in-law like her and for having a mother-in-law that I do have.
I'm thankful for all the friends that I have in my life now and all the ones I do not have in my life. It was truly hard for me to let go of a couple of people that were growing weeds in my life and I am so thankful for finding the strength to finally let go of them. I am also thankful for the friends that have been added to my life and the many that will come. One of the things I'm very grateful for is being able to be on my own and being okay with that. I have been working on my own for a while now and though it does get pretty lonely at times, it has grown on me and now I thoroughly enjoy the silent hours that I have to myself and I finally do not crave being in crowds or even feel the need to listen to music or watch shows while I am alone. I'm thankful for being stronger for it and feel blessed.
I'm thankful for moving to LA with my best friend--Hamed. I'm happy that he finally got his visa and he is with me here now and we are building our life together. There is definitely hardship and there are times when I wish it would be easier but then other times, when I remember the hell we were in just a few months before, I shut up and thank the heavens for having the gift of just being together. I am thankful for our tiny home. I'm thankful for our awesome couch that took weeks to find! I'm thankful for having this beautiful place to ourselves and having the freedom to decorate it as we wish and go at our own pace without anyone pressuring us to make it bigger and more "luxurious". I mean...it's all about time--giving ourselves the time needed to get there. I'm thankful for having this time and having the freedom to choose when it's time for us.
Lastly, just because I am surrounded by a couple of college students who are babbling on and on and on and on and I want to smack them and I can't because I could probably get arrested for it---I'm thankful that I'm not a college student anymore. I'm thankful that I can just take a couple of courses (for free, which is what I did this past semester and I'm so happy I did) and not even have to worry about doing so well in it because I took these classes just because I wanted to and not because I have to. Now that I have brought it up, I'm thankful that I did not go ahead with the process of applying to a PhD program. I'm so thankful I made the decision to not go through with it. I'm thankful with the decision I made to instead write, pursue different business ventures and go at my own pace in my life. I'm thankful, I'm thankful, I'm thankful.
Thank you God for everything that you have given me and everything that you have not. Thank you.
In fact, I'm once again very motivated to go back to my story and complete it. I did lose a little bit motivation and start a new project (which I would like to also do after I complete the story). I shared the story with my MasterMind group and I've gotten so much compliment from them that I'm all juiced up and ready to get back to writing! I know thanksgiving is already done, but, I never gave a chance to myself in this platform, to give my thanks. So here it is...
I'm so thankful for all that I have and all that I do not have. I'm thankful for all that I am and all that I am not. I got to experience first-hand what it means to have an awful mother-in-law this past week and not even because of my own mother-in-law. The truth is, I have an amazing mother-in-law who I love and miss and can't wait to bring into my life here in LA. She's like my godmother. She is so beautiful and kind and every day I wish I can be more like her. It's no wonder my husband has so much respect for her...she's just an amazing woman and mother and of course, mother-in-law. However, in a very weird turn of events, I experienced having an awful mother-in-law by someone who is a distant relative. Out of my parents' respect, I didn't bitch at her like I wished I could but man..she really showed me what it means to have a spiteful mother-in-law in her mother-in-law ways, I mean, the get in my face about my life traditional sense of mother-in-laws. Ok, this was supposed to be a positive message about why I'm thankful. Right. I'm thankful for not having a mother-in-law like her and for having a mother-in-law that I do have.
I'm thankful for all the friends that I have in my life now and all the ones I do not have in my life. It was truly hard for me to let go of a couple of people that were growing weeds in my life and I am so thankful for finding the strength to finally let go of them. I am also thankful for the friends that have been added to my life and the many that will come. One of the things I'm very grateful for is being able to be on my own and being okay with that. I have been working on my own for a while now and though it does get pretty lonely at times, it has grown on me and now I thoroughly enjoy the silent hours that I have to myself and I finally do not crave being in crowds or even feel the need to listen to music or watch shows while I am alone. I'm thankful for being stronger for it and feel blessed.
I'm thankful for moving to LA with my best friend--Hamed. I'm happy that he finally got his visa and he is with me here now and we are building our life together. There is definitely hardship and there are times when I wish it would be easier but then other times, when I remember the hell we were in just a few months before, I shut up and thank the heavens for having the gift of just being together. I am thankful for our tiny home. I'm thankful for our awesome couch that took weeks to find! I'm thankful for having this beautiful place to ourselves and having the freedom to decorate it as we wish and go at our own pace without anyone pressuring us to make it bigger and more "luxurious". I mean...it's all about time--giving ourselves the time needed to get there. I'm thankful for having this time and having the freedom to choose when it's time for us.
Lastly, just because I am surrounded by a couple of college students who are babbling on and on and on and on and I want to smack them and I can't because I could probably get arrested for it---I'm thankful that I'm not a college student anymore. I'm thankful that I can just take a couple of courses (for free, which is what I did this past semester and I'm so happy I did) and not even have to worry about doing so well in it because I took these classes just because I wanted to and not because I have to. Now that I have brought it up, I'm thankful that I did not go ahead with the process of applying to a PhD program. I'm so thankful I made the decision to not go through with it. I'm thankful with the decision I made to instead write, pursue different business ventures and go at my own pace in my life. I'm thankful, I'm thankful, I'm thankful.
Thank you God for everything that you have given me and everything that you have not. Thank you.
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