As you sat across from me, you confirmed it.
As you sat, resolved, in all your seriousness, with the same
eyes that took me in as a permanent guest, you confirmed what I had feared all
this time. You told me you see me, the darkness, and how it’s affecting us and
how it could affect us and our love.
I used to think love conquers all. But that was a long time
ago. So much has changed. So much has passed. I am not that little girl
anymore. Love doesn’t conquer all. Will
conquers all. If you will to be
better, to choose love before hate, to choose trust before suspicion, to choose
happiness over sorrow, to believe what they all tell you or let your heart
choose what you know to be true.
It all felt surreal. It reminded me of that other time, when
everything felt surreal and I suddenly wasn’t me anymore and I was observing
the scene from the outside, looking in, writing the storyline in my mind as I
watched you break me. I didn’t want to be there but it was like this force was
holding me in place and I just prayed I wouldn’t fall, because I wanted to
know. I wanted to know you, know why you changed.
Did I change you?
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